Looking Back on this Year

05.01.2012

As I’m sitting here at home on my couch I can’t help but think about the huge difference I’ve noticed in myself this year. Towards the beginning of the year, I was still this quieter person who had a difficult time sticking up for myself even when it was to my friends.

I now notice that I was allowing some people to hold me back and I think that the best thing I did for myself was getting out of that situation. Now that I am where I am, it is hard for me to even imagine allowing others to hold me back. Part of this was my fault as well.

Why would I let someone tell me who to be during my college career? College is all about finding yourself, not letting other people label you or tell you who they want you to be. Second semester, I embraced this fact.
I put myself out there by accepting an internship and pledging two professional fraternities. I’ve made more friends and connections. I’ve organized events, collections, and will be the chair of a committee next year. I’ve put myself out there socially and have talked to people that I normally wouldn’t have.

Yes, it’s nerve-wracking and you don’t know if you’re going to do everything the right way. And yes, it’s hard to forget all of the things that you think people are judging you for. But, you just have to jump in with both feet. My outer shy shell is finally cracking and I’m starting to reveal the real me to the world for the first time in a while.

So, my advice to you is: don’t lose yourself. Sometimes it’s bound to happen at college, but make sure that you stop and realize who you are being and who you want to be. College is so much more than just learning and preparing yourself for a career. Embrace college life. Put yourself out there. Make a fool out of yourself. Be selfish a little bit. If you’re not happy, change your situation. This is one of the few times in life where you can experiment will all of these things. You can change your future. I did, and I am so so happy with the way that my semester ended.

I have finally found my niche. My group of friends that will always keep it real and treat me right. They accept me for who I am and who I want to be. They share in my excitement, sadness, and stress. They are supportive of my goals and dreams. And the ones that don’t, well, I’ve learned to let them go and drag down someone else. Learn to cut those people out of your life early on and it will save you a lot of tears, stress, and anger. Next year is going to be even better, because I’ll be starting it off right.