Praiseworthy Sunday10.04.2009Although today was a long and tiring day, I have to say it was lovely. The beginning, in particular, was splendid. Then again, my days always are just that much better when I start it off with the Lord. My roommate, Annie, and I went to the early service at Apex Community Church this morning, and all I can say is that I'm so sad that this was the first time I went.
As you may or may not know, UD is a Catholic (Marianist) school, and as you may or may not know, I am not a Catholic. But, this has never been a problem. I am a non-denominational Christian, but I've never felt out of place being at a Catholic school. I have, however, been struggling for a year about where to worship. Enter Apex.
I had heard about Apex, a non-denominational Christian church about 10 minutes from campus, from some students last year, but I never had a way to get there and I got so busy that I never got around to going. A lame excuse, I am aware. This morning while standing in the pews singing praise with so many other people, I realized that I needed to re-prioritize. Last year at school I didn't make time for God in my life, but I made time for all of the other activities I was involved in, none of which are near as important to me as my relationship with Christ. I'd go to my home church when I was there on breaks, and it always rejuvenated me and helped me ground myself. I'd always promise myself that when I got back to school I'd make arrangements to get a ride to Apex, but then I'd get back to school and life would get hectic and somehow church would get pushed to the bottom of my priority list. I see now that this was completely backward.
So, this year I told myself yet again that I would find a ride and make it a point to make time for God. And for the first month and a half here, I failed miserably. But, I found out that a friend of mine goes to Apex pretty much every Sunday and he said he'd give me and my roommate a ride. Let me just say that I'm so glad we went this morning. There's something about standing in the middle of a huge sanctuary singing worship songs that makes me feel so connected. It's crazy and wonderful to think that I'm surrounded by so many people, but at the same time I'm so focused on God that I forget all about them.
Apex reminded me so much of my home church from the moment I walked in. From the set-up, to the size, to the music, to the preacher's style and personality, it all felt familiar and welcoming--like home. I even had to stop myself from tearing up a few times from the feeling that in that moment, I was exactly where I was supposed to be. And that's where I will be the Sundays I'm at school. Obviously a promise to be there every single Sunday would be hollow, because I can't guarantee that. But what I can say is that I'm going to try a lot harder to stay connected to God. He's too precious to lose. Thank you, Apex, for helping me remember that.